Down Once More
Down once more to the dungeon of my black despair!
Down we plunge to the prison of my mind!
Down that path into darkness deep as Hell!!!
I'm going to be honest. With the passing of my stepgrandfather, I've been thrust into somewhat of a depression. My brother parades his girlfriend(s) around, rubbing in the fact that I'm still single after all these years. Especially missing out on happiness in high school.
I'm looking for a job and applied at Best Buy. I still haven't heard anything from them. I checked my email. Nothing. No messages. No changing my wall. No phone calls. Nothing. I'm not even sure people read this thing. Just futher confirms my observation that no one really wants me.
To top it all off...I found out a friend of mine in SC was raped. The bastard stole her virginity against her will. I'm just so MAD!!!
So...now it is very clear. I am NOT the hero. I AM the Phantom. Trapped in my thoughts and wishes. Powerless...doomed to live a lonely and sad life. So it appears..
I taken up enough of your time. I should get back to my boring, lonely...very, very lonely..existance I can barely call a life.
I guess this is Goodnight.
Well.
Down we plunge to the prison of my mind!
Down that path into darkness deep as Hell!!!
I'm going to be honest. With the passing of my stepgrandfather, I've been thrust into somewhat of a depression. My brother parades his girlfriend(s) around, rubbing in the fact that I'm still single after all these years. Especially missing out on happiness in high school.
I'm looking for a job and applied at Best Buy. I still haven't heard anything from them. I checked my email. Nothing. No messages. No changing my wall. No phone calls. Nothing. I'm not even sure people read this thing. Just futher confirms my observation that no one really wants me.
To top it all off...I found out a friend of mine in SC was raped. The bastard stole her virginity against her will. I'm just so MAD!!!
So...now it is very clear. I am NOT the hero. I AM the Phantom. Trapped in my thoughts and wishes. Powerless...doomed to live a lonely and sad life. So it appears..
I taken up enough of your time. I should get back to my boring, lonely...very, very lonely..existance I can barely call a life.
I guess this is Goodnight.
Well.
posted by Jeffrey Lazenby | 9:18 PM
1 Comments:
I just want you to know that I do read your blogger thing. And you are nowhere near a phantom to me. You mean the world to me, and are a wonderful guy. I just want you to know that you are soo sweet, and one day you are going to find that future wife that you talk about, and she is going to be the luckiest thing on the planet. :) Keep your head up and remember that you are Jeffery Michael Lazenby, and thats reason in itself to be happy. Talk to you later sweetness, and keep those blogger-entries coming. :)
Michelle
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